i love her!!!

my grandma was amazing! she is my inpiration.she taught me how to love unconditionally and to be the best i can be... today i was at ccd .and my teacher was talking to us about when her mother had died.i was sitting there thinking why tonight??i mean i know that you need to talk about this kind of stuff but not so soon. it had been 7 years since her mom died but only 4 months since my grandma died. i couldnt help but think about her.she was my personal "god" in a way. i dont really know how to really put it but thats what i can think of right now. she was awesome and when i found out she was sick it was heartbreaking. i was just getting out of my play rehersals when my uncle came to pick me up. i had no idea why he was picking me up but he was. when i asked him why he was and not my dad he told me that mon was in the hospital and was really sick.we went eat and when we got home we got a call from my dad saying that the doc didnt know how much longer she had. if we wanted to see her we needed to get there asap. i reember getting dressed then going into the kitchen and crying. i couldnt stop.when we got to the hospital she was on a respirator or something like that.i went in and saw everyone standing there crying over her. i could barely speak. i was scared out of my mind..i knew she wasnt coming out of this . i knew she was gone. the next day when my parents got home and told me she was gone i cried for 3 days straight. i couldnt stop. the day before her funeral i didnt cry. it was like i was all dried out. but the day of the funeral was crazy. i was scared and knew how many people were gonna be there.the line to see her was out the door. she was a wonderful person is what everyone told me. i think i had to have faith that they were right. i think god definitly has a plan for everyone in the world and this was hers.no matter what happens i always know that she is watching over me and my family! i love you mon!!!